I just found out I am pregnant 4 days ago. I didn’t believe it that whole day. I went to urgent care and took a pregnancy test there immediately free I found out. I finally told my boyfriend ( 34 years ). He told me he for some reason knew it. Exciting right? Well I’m more scared than excited. More nervous than anything. He doesn’t want the baby but will support me with my decision. He told me he would rather us get an abortion than keep the baby. He said our relationship is still new ( 7 mo ) and we don’t even live together. So moving in together probably won’t be an option but will still be together. That completely just broke me. I don’t want my baby experiencing this. I’m 22 and just became a flight attendant! I’ve been out of the state this whole time this has been going on. I’m so lost with this decision of ether keeping the baby or really just taking ownership of our actions and raising this child whether it means by myself. I have a doctors apt in 2 weeks and I know hearing the heart beat will completely change my heart and fall in love. Every morning I wake up and it’s crazy to think I have a little life depending on me for growth and I have the power to completely stop that. I keep going back and forth and have never id be in this situation. I just wish my boyfriend can be a man and take ownership of the mistakes we were making and realize what he needs to do. He said in 3 years we will be ready but right now I’m finishing my masters and trying to be the captain in the fire department as well as my career just starting out. I just ask for prayer amongst this decision and figuring out how to accept what’s next.