I’ve been with my boyfriend for just over four years now. We live together, have a cat and dog, and are really truly in love. We’ve been best friends since middle school! The shitty thing though, is how bad the sex is.

When we first starting fooling around, it was amazing. Or, so I thought. It was definitely passionate, but maybe I thought it was great because I was only 17. As time has passed, I’ve always thought, “it’s not that big of a deal. Sex isn’t everything in a relationship.” But now I’m 21, and hungry for real, GOOD sex. He’s made me have an orgasm no more than 10 times in the 4 years we’ve been together.

We had a brief split in 2017 to “find ourselves.” I did what most girls do and cried the entire time, too worried about him. He did what most boys do and slept around. I wish I had taken the opportunity to do ME. I had one small one night stand, that was even WORSE sex! The boat AND the motion of the ocean was tragic!

Anyway, I sort of feel robbed at this point. I want the crazy passion, and sweat, and loss of time. I’ve had at least one wet dream with random people every night this week. I can’t stop thinking about it!

Any advice is good advice at this point lol! I love him with my entire heart, so I feel terrible about this ): I have no idea how to confront the situation!

*Quick edit*: I keep having fantasies about threesomes and all this other stuff. My mind is really in need of some TLC lol