Ok, before I start I just want to make things clear.

I’m not trying to be rude to anyone. I’m not trying to sound spoiled. I’m not trying to compare my situation to other’s. I don’t need to be told I’m not alone, because I know I’m not. I don’t need to be sympathized, I just need to get it of my chest.

So, last night I had a migraine. I usually get them after my period ends (it ended today). While I was in my room laying dow with the lights off and door closed, I asked my mom to lay down with me. She told me she was tired and that I would be fine, and to just try and go to sleep. I understood that. She then told me that if I still had my migraine in the morning she would lay with me.

Turns out, I still had my migraine. So I asked my mom to lay me over text, and she never texted back. About an hour later I texted again, and she said she was about to make breakfast and she couldn’t lay with me. I understood that again because we were going to my grandmothers house and needed to eat before we got there. Then I asked if she would lay with me after afterwards and she said we couldn’t because then we have to get ready to go.

The migraine got so bad I started to cry. After I felt strong enough to get out of bed I went downstairs to eat. Then, after I ate I asked her why she wouldn’t lay with me holding back tears and she said she was woken up by my (autistic) brother to go and get fries,which wasn’t unusual, and she was just tired. Then she had to make breakfast for the family. I reminded her that she said she would be there if I needed her and she gave me a hug and told me to get ready.

While I was in the shower I broke down. I fell to my knees crying hysterically.

I realized how alone I felt.

I was in a dark room

In pain

Weak

And no one was with me

I felt alone, and I hate to be alone.

I then realized that I was not alone and some people are. Some people don’t have a mom to guide them. Some people don’t have family to Love or to love them.

So I want to let everyone who my feel alone, know that there not.

You have me

You have the people on this app

You always have people

Sometimes you just can’t see them

So remember, you are NOT alone.