I have been big for as long as I remember. My mom always told me it was just baby fat and it would eventually "go away". I'm 17 and almost 200 pounds and I'm 5'3. Everytime i get close to 200 I have a mental breakdown and stop eating for several days. I'm in therapy for depression and anxiety, but we also work on my self-image. I have a boyfriend and he makes me feel beautiful, but I can't shake the feeling of self hatred because of my body. My boyfriend has spent HO

URS going down on me and he is NOT bad at all, but he has never been able to make me cum. I love him with everything I have and

it makes me feel terrible because he doubts himself now. I want to lose weight but I can't afford a gym and it's too cold to exercise outside..idk what to do..