I think I've messed up everything

I recently broke up with my bf of 2 years back in October(that's a long story). We've remained friends for the most part, but I know he's just trying to win his way back into my life. I don't want a relationship with him again, but he thinks he can win me back. I've also reconnected with a different ex now & everything in me wants to be with him & only him, but circumstances are keeping us from happening. I love him & no matter what we are always drawn to each other over the last 4 & 1/2 years. I believe that things you really want in life won't be easy to get & you have to work for them if it's that important to you. We live in different cities, are not official, & rarely get the chance to see eachother. We last saw each other for a few hours on Christmas. Now this new guy has popped up in my life. I've known him since 7th grade & we've always been the best of friends. Somehow we've ended up being FWB but it feels like more. We once thought of a relationship when we were younger but now I don't know what he wants & I don't want to ruin anything by bringing it up. He has his baggage & he knows it so I think that's why he won't try to pursue me. I'm to a point that I have no idea what to do or how to handle any of this now. I need help!