I wish

when you have been trying to conceive for a long time and you go to work and you work with a lady you haven't seen in a little while. she stares at you and tells you that you look different, you just stand there thinking well I havent dyed my hair I may have put on a few pounds over the Christmas period but no i look the same. she asks me if I'm pregnant I say no she asked me if I was sure because my face looks different. I said yes I literally came on my period a week early and it wasn't that long ago. about 10 minutes later I get a phone call off my boyfriend's dad who lives in Jamaica saying he had a dream.. I was like ok? don't we All? He turns round and said I had a dream you had a baby boy but you couldn't agree on a name for him.. I was just like ok dad.. all the time wishing I could have turnt round and said yes I am pregnant.. if only I was I would be the happiest person alive.. It kind of made me feel good but heart broken at the same time. forever wishing for something