feel like giving up 😢

Toni

im 44 and been trying ttc since my miscarriage a yr ago december,,,,, now last October 23 i had my last period and still to this day i still havent had a period,,, i have recently had 4 days of spotting and today i did a hpt and it was yey again negative,,? why haven't i either come on my period or got a positive 😢 i will be 45 in July and my partner is 41 in march,,,, can any one help ot advise me please 😢😢