My boyfriend broke up with me just over a month ago, it was out of nowhere. We were (at least I thought) very much in love and happy together. We lived together our whole relationship of two and a half years.

His reasons were that he wants to focus on himself and be young and free. I totally understand that - I would be more accepting if it didn’t hit me like a truck.

The day he ended things with me I had suffered a concussion and had a cracked face - he broke up with me then dropped me at the hospital.

Smashed face, homeless and friendless.

Our friends were all the same people (his friends) and none have asked if I’m okay, which has been very hard for me.

After crying for two weeks straight (24/7) I kind of reduced it to just when I’m left by myself. So in order not to be alone I’ve rekindled with all my exes and have a bunch of one night stands. This resulted in a very sore vagina and what I think is an STI.

On top of it all (the heartbreak and tears) I’ve been sick since the moment things ended (bad flu & tonsillitis).

My best friend has been supportive but I know things will improve it’s just I think I’m still shocked. I can’t figure out what I’m feeling - it’s just empty. I miss him and I love him. I’m not mad but then sometimes I feel a little mad.

I just really want one day of pure peace, no sadness, a good night sleep, no flu and no dependency on a man.