Figure I’d post it here cuz it will never get read in a different category ... :/

My sad story goes a little like.... “i feel like a selfish bitch, all these years of asking the lord to help me conceive, then i finally do, and it’s “not the right time” and my only way out is an abortion??? How fuxking selfish am i!!!”

Those are my after thoughts... I’m constantly guilting myself. It’s only Tuesday and i did it on Saturday. I’m having a rough time understanding why i even decided to do it if this is what i wanted for so long!!!! Please don’t judge me on here guys. Apart from asking the lord for a baby for so long, you must understand that there was also some very miserable circumstances which led me to my decision. Still this is against what I’ve wanted. And now all of a sudden I’m in this emotional distress. I really just came on here so you ladies who have been through this can share some insight on what helped you heal. And really just share feelings with each other. No one in my circle knows. And so venting through here is my best bet. I appreciate you guys. And really bless those who have also been in my situation.... it’s a rough one 😔😔