why...

I left him. he hurt me mentally emotionally and physically and it was starting tk happen with our son so I took my 10 month old and left.. ..it's been a week since I've been gone and yesterday was the first day he hasn't asked about our son...yesterday he told me his ex was talking to him. I know he's trying to manipulate me he was always good at it. in just still so posses he didn't ask about our son. he didn't text me about anything. I just don't know what to do anymore I'm so frustrated. I know I'm not going back I don't want him...I think what terrified me more is the fact that he's threatened to take my son away. I know he won't win but in the back of my head in scared. I'm terrified and the only comfort was knowing he would ask literally everyday for pictures of to tell our son that daddy loves him and i would I would even let him call so I could put the phone on speaker and my son could hear his father's voice...and now nothing. I hate it. I didn't care all day till now at 3 am. why. why is this happening to me. I just want to feel normal again and happy. but I don't.