I HATE MY DREAMS!!! 😭😭😭

I usually don't have dreams, or don't remember them... I usually only remember blackness, and that might be because I have recessed memories (a story for another time). But sometimes I have one dream that I remember.

Lately, I've been having a single, reoccurring dream. And I HATE it! It's literally torture. I dont WANT to have these dreams, I'd never EVER dream of having these dreams. I wish they'd just stop. I'm embarrassed about these dreams and I feel so so guilty having them!

I've been in a committed relationship for 3 years now and my boyfriend and I have alot of trust in each other. We both know we would never cheat on each other. And now I'm having these stupid IDIOTIC dreams where I'm having sex with some other guy!!! 😭😭😭😭😭😭 he doesn't even have a defining feature! Just some random guy.

Why am I having these dreams?? How do I get them to stop?? And why do I feel so guilty about it?? It's not like I can control my dreams... can I? I'm actually terrified at the thought of telling my boyfriend about them.. 😵😭😫🤯😤