First let me say, I love my nieces and newphews very much and I love my sister too!

My sister told me last night that she was pregnant with her third child! Most would be overly excited and I am happy for her. However, my husband I have been trying for our first child for 6.5 years. We’ve had a miscarriage and an ectopic which led to my diagnosis of endometriosis. We have tried everything but <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a> because my husband will not do it and is against it. I’ve been so hurt and depressed because I can’t have kids for years. I hate my body. I know these are feelings of jealousy, but I feel more inadequate than I do jealous of my sister. I’m glad to have another niece or newphew join the family.

My husband I are working toward adoption which is more of a pain in the ass than it should be. My sister had given us a bunch of baby stuff but last night she said she will need it all back since she is pregnant. Idk why but having the baby stuff their just gave me some comfort and hope that I’ll get to use it. Not now! I have no hope and I’m tired of being that couple that can’t have kids!