Today, January 22 at 2 PM I would have gotten to see you baby, I would have seen your heartbeat and felt your flutters in my tummy. Today I would have met our Doctor, The doctor that would have delivered you the same doctor that delivered Mommy 💕. My heart crushed into 1 million pieces on January 16. I was on my way to go get hCG levels when Mommy started having cramps, I was bleeding that morning and the night before. I decided to go to the hospital where I waited hours to make sure you were OK. The bleeding didn’t stop it only got worse then when they took mommy back to the ultrasound room, I tried to see you on the screen but they wouldn’t let me I wanted to take a peek at you to see how much you’ve grown. When the doctor took the Transvaginal ultrasound out of me, mommy seen how much blood was on it and she knew something was wrong. From that point on it only got worse my cramps turned into contractions and I felt the gushes of clots. The doctors came in the room and told me that you were no longer in mommy‘s tummy and that I was losing you the room got quiet and I cried so much I could hear the doctors talking but I didn’t comprehend what they were saying I was focused on you. I love you so much baby and mommy wishes that you were still in her tummy growing And getting stronger. Mommy 💕 wishes that we could have had the chance to meet. I miss talking to you throughout the day, I miss the morning sickness that you would give me. I miss singing “you are my sunshine my only sunshine” I feel so numb without you. I miss you every second. You are my world and I promise as your mom I will do everything in my power to make you proud. I cannot wait to the day when Mommy 💕 gets to meet you and see how much you have grown, see how strong you have become. I love you so much my sweet angel I will live my life for you now. God please look after my little one & all the other beautiful little angels that needed to go home.