I know this is wrong. I’m drunk and I just ate about 8 Rice Krispie treats....I made myself throw up. I’ve never done this before. This is something I’ve thought about doing for a while (even when sober). I know throwing up on purpose is an extremely dangerous and wrong thing to do, but I did it. I think I feel this way because I’ve been messing with this guy for 4 years and I know he’ll never want me as anything more than a booty call. He won’t commit-he doesn’t want to. Here, I’ve been engaged and lost a baby with another man and I always go back to him because I’m so in love with him. He doesn’t care and now I’m making myself throw up to be skinny enough for him, hoping that will be enough for him. I know I need to go back to my counselor, so please don’t tell me to get help....I just need support please..: