I need serious help

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So I’ve been dating the same guy for almost 2 years now and things were okay when we first got together. We broke up twice at the start of our relationship but always ended up back together.

When we first got together I was living at home with my dad, then I ended up getting an apartment with my sister. I was working full time so we didn’t see each other much.

Not even a year after I got an apartment with my sister, I decided to go back to college, which left me in the position to move back home and go part time at my job so I could complete school.

When I moved back home, my dad wanted an insane amount of money for “rent”, and I couldn’t do that while working part time. My boyfriend offered me to stay with him and his dad and I would live rent-free while I went to college.

I felt like I didn’t have a choice because I couldn’t afford living at home if I wanted to complete school. I would literally have to live paycheck to paycheck.

So I said yes. We live in the upstairs part of his house, while his dad lives downstairs and his dog is super mean, so his dad built a “gate” out of wood and drywall that can be moved between the living room and the kitchen (the stairs are next to the living room), so I can go out the front door if I need to leave.

At first, I didn’t mind living like this. It was cool to live with someone I really cared about. We built a small “dorm-room” like kitchen where a closet once was, we combined our furniture and moved everything around. It was amazing.

Fast forward to September, my boyfriend decided he wanted to go to school too. So he looked into a technical college to learn automotive because he wants to be a mechanic. He goes to school 5 days a week, and then immediately comes home and has to leave for work. So he’s gone every single day 6am-9:30pm. Then when he’s home for the weekends, I’m working 7am-7:30pm (that’s my part-time schedule).

I guess what I’m trying to say here is that I’m starting to get over this whole thing. I feel trapped in a small “dorm room”, I don’t see him ever, we NEVER have sex. Not even because we don’t have time, but because he said he doesn’t want an accident.. I don’t feel like I’m attractive to him, honestly. I get he doesn’t want an accident because we can’t afford it, but he doesn’t even touch me.

I feel like I’m in a depressive state because I live 30 minutes from my old home, I take classes online, all my friends are working during the week, I work weekends, he’s never home.

I don’t know what to do. I feel trapped.. I wish I would have never moved in here but I don’t know how to bring it up to him without sounding like I don’t want to be with him. And sometimes I find myself thinking about breaking up with him, but my heart shatters. I don’t want to hurt him. I seriously love him, but this isn’t want I want for myself.

What would you do if you were in my shoes?

*UPDATE*

I texted him while he was at work. He said he understands where I’m coming from and I’ll most likely move out by next month. I’m going to move in with my mom and we’re going to get a two bedroom apartment together. I need to do this for me and for us as a couple.

My days literally consist of waiting for him to get home, and that’s not healthy. I told him I’m not trying to be selfish, but I need to think about me.

So thanks for all the input but I think we came up with a solution for now. One day I want have a place with him but until we’re done with school, we need to do what’s best for both of us.