Yesterday I went through with my abortion. I’ve wanted to be a mom my entire life. But at this point my boyfriend (who would have been the father) was just laid off due to injury, being pregnant in my job field wouldn’t have worked out, I’m 400 miles away from my family and friends and I may end up homeless next month due to complications with apartments.

Nothing in my life is set to where I’m stable enough to be a mom. Yes I could’ve considered adoption but I couldn’t have looked at my baby after I carried it for a full nine months and just handed it off to someone else.

I made the decision that was right for me for where I am at in my life right now, and I don’t regret it because I couldn’t financially give my child the life it deserved. I just feel such a loss and like I don’t deserve to ever be a mommy now.