Long story short...My parents are getting a divorce which put me in a rough situation 3 years ago with my dad cheating on my mom and my mom going through depression herself, i was the one there for her always, i was also there for the arguments late night or where ny dad would come home drunk and try to argue with me or my mom he would always disrespect both me and my mother, & always will say he’ll bring the divorce but never did, i really did start feeling the reality of this till i heard my dad telling my older brother that he didn’t consider me as his child anymore or that out of my sister and him my sister was always the child, he starting saying jocelyn is never going to be good enough like your sister that child is rebellious and wont ever listen, hearing him say i can bet everything i have that she’ll become pregnant in less than a year and she’ll have no future for her... and theirs more to the story but i feel so empty i want to do nothing but cry, i go to sleep crying and during the night i just wake myself up to crying, its feeling I can’t stop, my heart aches, i look at myself and i dont like me, i hate my appearance my dad would always tell me i was fat that i ate too much and always would make fun of my weight, and now i see myself ugly honestly my confidence is so low, i hate my body and how i look, i just cant stop the feeling of this...