I have a doctors appointment tomorrow to hopefully talk about and get help for possible anxiety and social anxiety. I've struggled as long as I can remember and finally got the courage to do this.

But I haven't told my boyfriend yet and can't decide whether to or not. I just feel ashamed or like he will think it's silly or pointless even tho he told me to get therapy in a recent argument about my social awkwardness.

The thing is its in the morning and due to him working nights he sleeps in till 2pm or later. So although he isn't working that day it still means getting him up out of his routine just to come with me when I should just go alone.

But obviously I'm really nervous and verging on panic thinking about it so would probably appreciate his help greatly. But I feel so stupid for all of this and wanting him there. A grown adult who can't even go to the doctors alone? How ridiculous! 🙁

But will a grumpy boyfriend even be that helpful to me?

At the moment I just plan on pretending I am going to work as normal leaving him in bed in the morning. I wish I had someone to help and comfort me tho. He's can be a bit bipolar in that sometimes he is understanding and reassures me but other times he thinks i'm being stupid and just gets annoyed.