I’ve struggled with depression and anxiety ever since I can remember. When we started trying I stopped taking my medication and I was fine until I had a miscarriage then I got pregnant too soon after and things got way worse. Once I hit my second trimester things were so good and I truly felt happy. Now that I’m 36 weeks I noticed the other day something just flipped. I don’t feel happy, I have horrible anxiety and I’m totally freaking out. I can’t stop thinking what if she isn’t healthy, I’ve had the flu twice this pregnancy both with a really high fever that Tylenol didn’t really help with, i had to get an X-ray on my wisdom tooth, and I’ve probably had more caffeine then recommended.. I also have a 5 year old and I snapped at him for no reason the other day( I think that’s why this whole depression thing started). What if I’m not a good enough mom to have two children. I can’t stop crying and I just feel like a failure. Does anyone else feel this way or have any advice?