It's been two years that I lost 45lbs. It all started when I was pregnant I just had 3 weeks. I knew I was pregnant because I never in my life had felt the way I did. Everything made me feel nauseous. After a month in a half I felt like my soul was also flushed down the toilet. It was horrible when I went to the doctor and they told me the dramatic amount of weight I had lost. I couldn't believe it. I thought it would be all temporary and that I'd get better. Months passed by and my nausea never stopped I got worst after 3 months I was so weak I couldn't even stand up to shower myself. It was so horrible to see my bones in the mirror. Mirrors were covered up so I wouldn't see myself. They wanted me to just focus on baby. Which I did. I would throw up and rush to eat afterwards and rush to the restroom again. Water wouldn't want to stay down. I would be in and out of the hospital. I got to 34 weeks and my appetite suddenly was amazing at 36 weeks my baby was born in two weeks I gained 10 lbs and I lost them right after I pushed my baby out. Also after two weeks of having him I was at home happy feeling good and I lost in seconds more then half my blood. A hemorrhage. They took me to the ER rushed I was more dead then alive but god and wonderful doctors saved me. I had emergency surgery and I was unconscious for days, I woke up and had memory loss but after some time I remembered things. It was horrible. I went through so much that I can no longer have any more children. After all that everyone would tell me you'll be back to normal and it's been more then a year and it feels like my whole body was sucked in and eaten. I've done it all and nothing seems to help. It has gotten to the point it saddens me every day more then more then 500 days of sadness because of my body being so skinny. I don't know how some people say it's better to be skinny when I'm so unhappy so unhealthy struggling everyday I get bullied by my own family I he remembered how I used to be pretty and now I look awful. It's sad. I'm just wondering if anyone has been through this? And if so what did you do? Please help me. I flew across to a new country just to see a Dr and he promised to help me and start me on a treatment but I don't know if it will actually help me since it's been so long and I've lost faith. 😔💔