Insecure

Is been a YEAR !! that i had given birth to my son 💚💚 , but i have not lost any weight n I’m currently weighing 228 :( ! Before I was pregnant I weighted 178 , & now sometimes I get so stressed out because I want to make my self feel better . Been told that I’m a fat B**** . Yup it hurts . I try having that as my motivation but it’s hard specially living in a ranch 20 mins away from the city n not having anyone to watch my son ! Do you guys have any ideas to work out at home or stuff , because the gym is pretty far