Why dose this hurt sooo bad

Shawxty

My now ex and I broke up yesterday die to long distance since he just recently moved to Florida and we’re from California. We talked and both said we love each other and when he gets back maybe we can try again and that also if either of us need anything to hit up the other. But I told him I was fine and I wasn’t genuinely hurt but after a while I realized I was and I’ve been crying since my eyes are sooo swollen, on top of all of it I have the flu. I am sooo hurt because I wish he told me this sooner than now because we’ve planning moving into together in May now that’s out but why dose this hurt??? None of my last relationships ever hurt me like this. I don’t know why this one dose😭😭😭😭