I'm going to try to write this post without crying this is the first time talking about this! On this day last month 12/26/17 myself and my hubby Julio Blanco lost our son Mason due to pregnancy complications. I had my usual prenatal appt that day so I went to go see my doctor. I had just made 33 Weeks but Prior to going to my appt that morning, the night before I was having some abnormal contractions starting at 3:30am in the morning which woke me up. I didn't think anything of it so I drank some water used the restroom and tried to changed positions while I slept, I kept tossing and turning but finally got some sleep to then wake up again around 6am with the same pain so I thought maybe a nice hot shower would work which did for a lil while but still in pain I started getting ready cuz I knew something was wrong, once it was 8am i woke everyone up so we can go to the my appt which was at 10:30 but I got there earlier since I had a feeling something was wrong. Everything was fine till my doctor tried to find Mason's heartbeat but he was having difficulty and I had told him there hasn't been no Fetal movement since dinner time the night before so he called a cab for me to go to his main Labor & delivery hospital. By 10:30 that morning I was already admitted to the hospital while having plenty of doctors and nurses checking my vitals, blood pressure and ultrasound to check the baby, but no matter how many doctors tried they just couldn't find my baby's heartbeat. I couldn't believe the news the doctors was telling me, I couldn't stop crying, we just couldn't believe this was happening to us. I then was diagnosed with PEC with severe features and HELLP syndrome. So basically I had a severe case of hypertension preeclampsia that came out of no where cuz I didn't have any symptoms besides the swelling of the hands and feet. Trying to process this ordeal of pain I then had to wait hours to give birth to our son that we knew would never cry or open his eyes. Finally by 10:34pm he was here at 3lbs 8oz 17 inches long, and while holding him in my arms I couldn't help but think wow such an angelic precious handsome lil boy you are. And I just kept telling u Mommy loves u so much while giving u kisses!! By 2am we had to let u go, and omg how that was the hardest thing for me to do. But the doctors and nurses wanted to make sure I got better since my health was at risk, my blood pressure was thru the roof, kidney was slightly failing and my platelets was low. So I basically had to stay in the hospital for a 24 hr watch under plenty of fluids and medications.. finally they discharged that Friday on the 29th to go home! Even tho it's been a month I still don't understand y this had to happen to us, a day that was suppose to be a blessing was taken away from us. I donno how someone can bare this type of pain. Even tho I still live my life and keep moving on for my other two older children, I can't say I'm happy at all!! Most days I feel empty and lost I'm missing a huge part of me and I just donno how Ima get thru this!!! All I know is the amount of love and the bond I had with my son Mason and just wished that I can hold you in my arms while u stare at me with ur beautiful brown eyes!!! So with that being said Sleep in Peace Our Angel MASON THOMAS IRIZARRY!!! Mommy and Daddy loves you past forever beyond infinity!! Till we meet again our lil baby boy!!! 💙👼🏻💙 #12/26/17