Having a hard time

My husband and I have started binging Grey’s Anatomy on Netflix. So many episodes with miscarriages and still births and infant issues. It’s dragging up so many memories. I’ve lost 4 pregnancies, 2 ended naturally and 2 ended in D&C.; Only one was far enough along for genetic testing and came back with Triploidy. I’ve been crying so much more than usual lately. I let myself get depressed when it happened but I’ve gotten so much better and was dealing with it so well and now I’m thinking about them all the time 😢