So, as usual I sucked my boyfriend’s dick and usually he tells me when he about to cum so I can stop sucking. I hate the cum like I don’t like it in me or near me. And this time I was sucking his dick and he cane in my mouth. I swallowed not knowing he was cumming and I swallowed his cum. And now I feel sick to my stomach. I feel dirty and I honestly can’t feel anything . Like he ate me out afterwards and I couldn’t enjoy it. All I could do was lay there and stare at the ceiling. And my boyfriend is sleep trying to cuddle and I’m just grossed out to even let him touch me or be close to me. Like is this a normal feeling? Does anyone know how I feel? Idk I need advice. Thanks!