I've been looking online for lingerie to wear for myself to feel hot in front of my boyfriend. Its not for him, it's for me.

But, looking at the models on the websites I feel ugly and gross.

I'm not necessarily chubby, I'm actually kind of small. But I have a small chub on my stomach. I hate it. I've been trying to work out some, but it's such hard work. I don't necessarily hate my body. I just wish I didn't have the chub, and I wish I didn't have a small happy trail.

It just sucks looking at the women in the pictures and knowing I'll look stupid in the lingerie.

They all have flat stomaches and I have this stupid chub. 🤦🏻‍♀️

Sorry, I just needed to rant.