I'm still in a state of disbelief. I'm 38 and my boyfriend and I have been trying for our first for ten months now and nothing. But something just felt right about this month... I was supposed to get my period today, and my nipples have been sore for a couple days (not at all normal for me), so I decided to test. TERRIFIED... There has been so much disappointment... But I peed on the stick and couldn't look... Finally I gave myself a pep talk, you know... "hey, make sure you look really close, the line might be there and just super faint..." managed to talk myself into going into the bathroom and saw this! Man, that's not faint, that's for sure! XD I am so incredibly excited and scared and... Basically just feeling every feeling in existence. My boyfriend and I aren't telling anyone for a while,.. But I needed to tell SOMEONE!