Emotional abuse or am I just a crybaby

Everyday I end up crying. I have to watch what I say and what time I say it. If I say something he doesn’t like it’s my fault we are fighting. Nothings ever his fault. But then he says he loves me. I say I’m sorry all the time but it doesn’t help. He doesn’t support what I do with my life. I just looked at how much I got paid and said it out loud jokingly because it’s only 76$ this week it was $300 last week. He said “well that’s something to strive for” now I’m just not taking because I don’t want an argument and don’t want him touching me because honestly I’m over it. So he try’s to talk to me saying what I’d he do?? And I am still mad. And don’t say anything. He says why does it matter if I’m mad/sad everyday..... I wanna leave but I freaking am stupid and love him so much. 🤦🏼‍♀️ what do I do???