Done being paranoid

As of today I'm just gonna let this take its own toll if I have a period this month I'll just try again if I don't have a period this month February then awesome but I am so done stressing about getting pregnant it's eating at me , and I'm done thinking that every little symptom I have is me being pregnant , I took a test way to early and it said no and it just crushed me .. tired of getting my hopes up if god wants me to have another baby then he will let me , I have a beautiful 20 month old little boy who I love dearly and would love to give him a sibling , but I have got to stop obsessing about getting pregnant again , I waste my money on test like it's nothing .. have a good day ladies