I have struggled with depression for YEARS and I finally had one full year with no relapse of it last year. I’ve been working really hard with my therapist weekly to make sure I stay positive and don’t let myself slip back into a depression after having my baby. Sadly though I feel like I just can’t get motivated for anything unless it’s taking care of my daughter. Things aren’t fun anymore UNLESS it has to do with my baby. I don’t enjoy the little things like I had once done. Life seems so grey again and I’m not liking it. I guess the best part of this whole thing is being aware that I’m here in this depression. My therapist and I have realised that I end up beating myself up because I care a lot about the people around me, given that I guess that’s a good thing. I feel like I’m so just depressed and not worthy of being a mom/girlfriend that I want to end my life so they can continue with someone who will be better for them, but I know my boyfriend would miss me and my daughter could struggle to understand why I did it & so thinking of that has kept me from doing anything stupid. Some days the only thing that gets me up and out of bed is my daughter 😪 I’m not looking for any judgment or “go walking outside” I know all the things I just want to vent and know that I’m not alone with these things. I’m also going to add a bit of positivity to this post by adding photos of my beautiful daughter & handsome boyfriend who keep me going everyday💕