I’m terrified.

I just need to voice my fears.

I am absolutely terrified about being a mother. I am 38 weeks pregnant and terrified for my baby to come. It’s not the labor I’m afraid of, but the huge change it will bring in my life. I’ve always wanted to be a mother but this pregnancy was not planned. I am 20, in college, and going to be a single mom. Although I haven’t met my child yet, I love him to death. But I’m absolutely terrified that I will end up regretting this decision. It feels awful to think of such a thing because of how much I already love my baby boy. But I had always imagined having a child when I was older, out of school, and married to the one I love. I’m afraid of not being able to provide for him, I’m afraid of not being able to care for him, I’m afraid to fail as a Mom. I feel so unprepared and overwhelmed already and he is not even here yet. I don’t know how to block these fears as they come every day.