I’m laying here struggling with what I should say exactly...

My anxiety is extremely bad right now.

I definitely don’t want to be alone.

My body hurts so badly. This may sound out there, but— Sometimes when my anxiety is really bad or even just randomly- I picture gruesome things. I don’t do it on purpose. They just appear.

I’m usually pretty good about forcing horrid thoughts out but tonight this picture is lingering...

It’s of my arm being sliced open from my elbow to my wrist all the way down so the bone is clearly visible and blood is falling.

It’s awful.

I feel my bones starting to ache a little. (I have chronic pain.)