so im not one to complain. i do what I'm told and that's that. if i feel the need to cry, i cry at night behind closed doors. recently all i am is sad. i cry the second i get home (around 6pm to the time i go to bed). i feel fat and useless. i feel worthless and helpless. and there's nothing anyone has said it will say that will make me feel better. idk why I'm posting this. i guess just bc this is the only place i feel safe writing this down.