Having a hard day.

Erin • Early MC Oct `14, Missed MC April `15 & Sept ‘18 💔

I’m 33... i want to have at least 2 children... felt nauseous the last week, headaches, sore breasts, etc... took a pregnancy test on Wednesday even though it was probably too soon to tell - it was negative. I was still hopeful that it was just too soon to test. Got my period last night. 2 more pregnancy announcements on Facebook as soon as I open the app, 1 after the other. Cue tears, self pity party, anger, jealousy, fear, resentment,

guilt for not being happy for them. Feel so stupid for letting myself hope and wishfully think it would be a positive test. Now I’m freaking out that life is going by too quickly and I’m running out of time for 1 baby let alone multiple. I hate this feeling. I just want it to be MY turn. Hate that I’m feeling sorry for myself :( .... needed to vent and figure someone on here will understand. I don’t want to talk about it with my fiancé or friends because I don’t want to bother them. Most people don’t know what to say anyways and it’s awkward. Thanks for listening. 😔