Beyond Frustrated

At first I wasn’t going to post anything because I don’t want to be negative but I need to vent. In November of last year I miscarried my precious baby. I was about 7 weeks so it was early but that didn’t mean the pain was any less. So my doctor cleared me to start trying again and that I should take a multivitamin or prenatal so the implant stage will be easier. So I’ve been taking prenatal vitamins ever since and still no positive pregnancy test. So this month I totally thought I was I mean my mom dreamed of fish and my period did not start on time. Unfortunately it came 4 days late. Such a disappointment. My significant other and I already have a 2 year old daughter I just really want to give him a son you know. We have our town place and he finally has a good paying job. So good that honestly I don’t need to stress about finding a job I just want one to get out the house and things like that. I decided to share this because it’s so frustrating every month praying your period doesn’t come on then going to the bathroom just to see that bright red streak. When I see y’all stories I be so happy and proud because I know the struggle. I guess I will get pregnant when it’s time and it will be when I least expect it. I just have to be patient. I’m sending everybody who is reading this baby dust. I pray for y’all every night. I’m still taking my prenatal vitamins and hopefully next month will be different. Maybe I shouldn’t anticipate it so much you know.