I reach out here because me and my fiancé are currently separated. He has our almost four month old baby. There is an order of protection against me and DCS involved.

I miss them so much and the thought of us not getting together ever again hurts me like hell. I even think about what he’s probably doing or even cheating on me.

I’m waiting for things to get clear, but time is being a living hell on me right now.

Please help me if you have any ideas of how to cope on.