Too scared to test?

Back 2 years ago (I was 15) I miscarried😩 but now the past week/two weeks Ive been ‘feeling pregnant’? Me and my boyfriend have been very careful using condoms etc but a few have slipped off inside me🤐 I’ve had slight cramps on my left side mainly, craving pickled eggs and chicken ball batter with sweet&sour; sauce😅 headaches, feeling sick but mainly at evening🤔 and I’ve also had dreams of being pregnant? I also had my neighbor ring me the other day to say that she have been having dreams for the previous two nights that I was pregnant? My boobs are also very sore to the point I’ve gone to my doctor who’s referred me to a booby doctor, I also just want to cry at everything! Back pain is also an issue aswell as the metallic taste!

My last period was only 2/3 days unlike the usual 5 days, normally my periods are painful and I can’t do anything but this time they weren’t as bad. I’m 9 days away from my next period but I’m in the whole, ‘it’d be too early to test’ and the ‘I’ve had a period it’s highly unlikely’ the other thing that is stopping me is seeing the 2 lines again and having an emotional break down as me or my boyfriend don’t want a baby (I’m 17, he’s 20, legal in my state) but I will never abort, it’d destroy me but so will the worry of a possible miscarriage again!

I have numerous symptoms but how likely is it really🤷🏽‍♀️ HELP! Thank you in advance sorry it’s long