I've always struggled with my weight and self love, I try really hard to enjoy my body, and keep it healthy and strong but sometimes it's really difficult. Back in July though, i felt as if I'd reached a really nice weight that looked good for my body.

I'm 5'4 and was roughly 145 pounds in this photo. I still wanted to lose some fat and build up some muscle, but I was happy with where I was.

Since then, I've gained nearly 20 pounds, and it's really knocked my self confidence down a few good pegs. I feel fat and unattractive, and though my boyfriend swears I'm still the most beautiful girl he's ever seen I'm worried he possibly misses the body I used to have.

Now I look more like this, and I'm just not happy with it. Am I just being silly, or is the difference really as big as I think it is?