Anyone else feel this way?

Harley

I recently got a bit more adventurous and decided to try something other than my fingers. I'm too embarrassed to go and buy any toys (plus I still live with my parents so I risk them finding any if I get them.) So I got a pestle from a mortar and pestle set. It feels really good but after using it for a while it's just not quite good enough. Like I can get semi close but need my fingers to finish up. Anyone got any tips or know of any discrete toys I could get?

(Pestle for anyone who doesn't know what it is.)