... i started getting stressed.

My period was late and I was hopeful, that it was going to be a BFP, after waiting a year, I thought it was my time.

It’s now CD50, and still no period, no belly and negative tests.

Everyone keeps saying that it could be stress, but that cycle, the missed one, I wasn’t stressed at all. It was Christmas, I was with my family, back home with my boyfriend, it couldn’t be more relaxed.

Then January, on the 11th, no period and I was like 😀 “it will be now”. After 3 weeks, that’s when I started to stress because all tests were negative, and I had “all the symptoms”...

Now, after a month, I am stressed.

I’m scared.

This is my dream. At 35 I just want to fulfil my dream and the struggle is real. I want to love a human being so much that my heart will explode but that dream, is turning into a nightmare, I can’t do it.

Now this is stressful, the wait, the doctors telling you to keep waiting and not wanting to blood test you. Your boyfriend going through sperm tests. The sleepless night and the tears...

I think I just need a break.

Does anyone feel like this?