I'm just really sad and heart broken lately. Since my miscarriage last July, I've been having a hard time moving forward from losing my first baby. The first creation I made. But my perfect creation was taken away for no reason. It was so hard. However, as time went on, I tried to become stronger. I did become stronger. But now, it's getting closer and closer to the day that I would have met my baby. I'll never know if I was having a boy or a girl. I'll never know what it's like to hear my baby's heartbeat. I'll never know what my baby would have looked like. I'll never get to hold my first baby in my arms. It's just not fair. I don't understand why my baby was taken from me. I know I would have been such a great mom. There's nothing I wanted more than to do whatever I could for that baby I created. I know I'll get another chance one day. We're TTC now. But my heart just hurts so bad because my due date is near, but I have no baby inside ready to come into the world. I just miss my Baby T so much. I feel like I failed my first child. 💔💔💔