Now the really weird thing about all of this is I kept waiting for someone to tell me I wasn’t really pregnant... I don’t know if the whole pregnancy thing was just so surreal to me that it didn’t feel real yet? But I kept questioning it. Then we went for the ultrasound and there was no heartbeat... Essentially at that point I was no longer pregnant. I guess somehow I knew? It is and was devastating and I’m sad that it ended this way, But I feel like in a way I was being warned...