But we just did this. Jada and Java are our new additions, exactly 2 days apart. I’m still crushed. I wanted my brindle baby, and won’t be getting her now. 💔The pain I have was giving me suicidal thoughts. Jada is 2 years old, and my man had to have her. Like he wouldn’t leave this spot no matter how hard i tried to push him from the spot he was staring dead at her. Java is 5 weeks old, and my baby. I cried when i first held her. I have barely eaten , i couldn’t even finish a wonton soup without feeling the urge to puke. I’ve only drank one full smart water bottle in 3 days. Help please💔😭