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hi just seeking advice from anyone who has been through this.....so I'm 26 weeks pregnant which i was so happy about it till at my 19 week gender scan where we was told our boy is smaller than average so I've got to have extra scans every 4 weeks to keep an eye on his development. when we was told it hadn't sunk in yet but as the weeks went on I started going into work less mood swings no desire to do anything even baby shop. I've just become so terrified about him i think he's going to pass anytime feel such a bad mum already with all my fears I've taken my anger out on my partner to the point I broke up with him. I'm so worried and confused about every just don't know what to do anymore... can anyone recommend something I'd really appreciate it thank you