So Over this pass weekend My Guy was acting kind of weird so I decided to become inspector gadget after mood checking him 1000 times. I cooked all his favorite meals , did all his favorite positions still no reaction . He just left me here wondering why he’s not satisfied . So finally I went through his phone . It’s been 11 years one major break up and there she was in his phone sending vj pictures telling him she misses him and him missing her. It shattered my heart. Ever since I’ve read the messages I haven’t been able to so much as even think about getting wet. Could I really be that upset? Is this a sign that I’m detached permanently?How do you heal your relationship after you’ve been betrayed twice for the same person outside out your relationship? Do you just move on? I need answers

I’m usually the person telling everyone about moving on because you cant get time back , but what if it’s worth it. How do you weigh a slip up from a behavior problem?? Currently also TTC So I’m wondering if I could even bring a child into this madness.. currently questioning everything I knew thus Far