I saw my doctor for the first time about my anxiety a few weeks ago. I am seeing him again tomorrow but in the mean time he told me to go to this open course about stress. The first session is this afternoon and then it weekly for 6 weeks.

I ignored and forgot about it till no but now I'm freaking out so much. I can't eat and my heart is racing and I still have hours before I go to it. But I'm stressing about where I can park that doesn't have a 2 hour limit. How to find the specific place. What it will be like. How many people will be there. Plus I feel stupid and like it won't even help me and maybe I'm stupid for even going to the doctor. Plus I took time off work for today but I can't for 6 weeks in a row so might not even make them all.

I just don't want to turn up tomorrow and say I couldn't go.

I'm sat in work for another hour or so and I haven't eaten anything but a banana and I can't concentrate. I honestly just want to go home and spend the rest of the day hiding in my flat.