I broke up with my boyfriend of 3 years a while ago for religious reasons. We were on a long distance relationship (I live in London and he Liverpool). He is quite anti-social and suffers from anxiety issues while I’m a bit outgoing yet reserved at the same. Shortly after the break up, I began to notice that the majority of his friends on FB and social media are girls. The reason I never knew over the past 3 years is he never shows me his cell phone/friend list on FB etc or even used his phone much around me, and I personally put 100% faith and trust in him. So after the break up I started to get jealous. A month later he posted some pictures of himself in London and other places where he went on hikes. Mind you the places he visited were places that I always wanted to go with him, but he always gave me excuses during his visit to London or vice verse that he’d rather stay at home because London is crowded and he’s seen everything to see. Later on he told me that he visited London with some female friends of his that traveled from Brazil and shown them around with no romantic ties or interests. Yet, I see him tagging the girl on IG and seemingly chatting with her a lot. I also found it strange that whenever I practically begged him to take me out and have fun he’d refuse but is motivated to show his new friends around the city he claimed to have seen everything in. I can’t lie that I’ve stalked the heck out of this girl and I’m feeling quite hurt and plain stupid that he must have been talking to her for god knows how long before the break up without me even suspecting or knowing. So a few days ago I sent him some texts that he saw but plain ignored as he does whenever I text him recently. I’m not sure if I was harsh, or petty?? I need some input from someone else because i am so emotional and I can’t judge whether it’s appropriate or not. Also, since I’ve sent it, his friend suddenly deleted her IG and FB accounts (She hasn’t blocked me) and thus I am assuming it’s the reason he isn’t online anymore? I just find it so strange that she disappeared and he lost motive to go online.

Ps. I always tried my best to accommodate his wishes and has personally tried to resolve it with him when I felt that I was compromising more than him. Another thing is, he’s always been affectionate towards me but at times he can be so passive and dismissive.