This is my 3rd baby. And 5th pregnancy. I’m currently 5 weeks 3 days pregnant. And to say it was a surprise a putting it mildly!!!

I’ve had zero symptoms, I am just tired...my boobs don’t even hurt..I know I should feel so incredibly lucky that I’m not puking my guts up like I did with my last baby...

Don’t get me wrong I’m happy, I have wanted another baby for a bit...until about a month ago...

My husband and I had this long convo about whether to have another one or not, and why...and he didn’t want another...I did...and we never came to an agreement on what to do...but shortly after the convo I decided I really didn’t need another baby...I could be just as happy as ever with the boy and girl I already have...and that feeling became more of an I seriously don’t want another one, because my daughter is such a handful! And then SURPRISE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Shock of my life...I thought I had the flu...or strep throat...

Today I went to lay down for a short nap after my husband got home, and he decided to join me, so my toddler joined in too, and it was more than I could handle and I just kept thinking...I don’t want this baby I don’t want this baby...😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

I do want this baby...but now is such shitty timing! And I don’t know how to get over that feeling and connect with the baby, the life growing inside me...I’m so emotional...

If you made it this far, tell me your “bad mom” confessions!