Anyone else a super sensitive person?

Even when it's something that keeps happening over and over again?

Even though you know there's thousands of people that die everyday.. you'd spend your whole life sad if you mourned over the death of strangers..

Maybe it's because its in our face, all over social media. Constant political debates and fights over it.

You see the victims faces all over your newsfeed, their stories.. who they were. And you just look at them and know that they just had their futures violently ripped away from them for no fucking reason.

I am seriously upset over this to the point of tears and I have been telling myself I don't even know these people/kids and it's almost selfish for me to cry... to have it affect me so much because it's not my pain..it's not my loss. I feel like im making it about me internally and that's why it feels selfish. I'm not the parent that just lost a child. I'm not the Highschool kid who just lost their best friend.

I just want to find those kids and hug them and tell them I am sorry and I don't understand that feeling. I can't offer them anything. Everyone else seems fine, or just pissed the fuck off.. some are actually making jokes about it.

I do not want to see pictures of the shooter because looking at him makes him seem human when there is nothing human about what he did. Yet his ugly ass face is plastered everywhere. It's very very hard to have empathy for him in any way. yet somehow still I feel like I should, and it makes me feel disgusted with myself.

These are very personal thoughts and I just thought I'd find a way to express them so I can stop feeling like I am going to explode.

I feel like the way I feel about these.."events" is very odd compared to how everyone else responds.

I've been feeling this way since I was sitting in one of my high school classes and the news of sandy hook was turned on in every class in the building. Every single time it happens, this is how I feel. And I wonder how soon it will be before i feel this way again.