I just can’t deal. I mean I try and try to be happy but it’s SOOO hard to be when I see all these girls getting pregnant and I’m still waiting. I want to TTC but it’s not time. I’m so annoyed. I know I’m not ready to have another baby and that my husband and I are struggling and just moved but I can’t help it. I want another baby so bad! I just know it’s selfish and immature right now ):

Needed to vent a little bit. I keep trying to calculate in my head how many months it’ll be for this and that to try and plan when we’re ready but it just seems so far into the future it’ll never happen!! Ughhhhhh